Spanking on the Cover of Newsweek!

While most of the competitors are writing about Trayvon Martin, the Korean Missile fail, the presidential election, Kim Kardashian's divorce, and why on earth Jessica Simpson has seriously been pregnant forever now, Newsweek decided to do something a little different this week. And, I have to say, I was shocked.

The premises of the article was based on the book Fifty Shades of Grey which has seriously taken the "non-DD world" and "DD world" by storm. I haven't read it yet, but if you have..I'd love to hear what you think. 

The headline of the article (even though it doesn't say it on the cover..maybe it's too controversial?) is Spanking Goes Mainstream. And, to some extent, that's true. From the popular Fifty Shades of Grey book to Anne Rice deciding to write a series on Dom/sub relationships that discuss spanking in great lengths, to movies, and now Newsweek..it appears it won't be too long before domestic discipline is brought up in "mainstream". And, I have to admit, I think it's awesome. 

The article dives pretty deep in exploring why women would want a relationship like that, and although it doesn't specifically mention domestic discipline, it does mention submissive tendencies, and Dom/sub quite a bit. 

I'm curious what everyone thinks. To read the article (it's 4 pages, but worth it!) click here. Also, if anyone has read Fifty Shades of Grey yet, please let me know what you think. I'm curious! :)

Time To Spring Clean: Spanking Implement Style!

Last week, I embarked on the ever-so-fun task of spring cleaning. Our house is now super organized (just the way I like it!) which is awesome.

I was reading through a list of 4 things in my Better Homes and Garden magazine that are "rules for spring cleaning, decluttering, and organizing" and then it occurred to me that although I thought our house was organized perfectly and life was great, I still had some work to do in our bedroom closet. Why? Because that's where the spanking implements are kept, and ironically, some of those seem to fit perfectly onto the list of things I should be tossing!

Lets take a look.

Rule #1: Throw Away or Donate Anything That Hasn't Been Used In Over 3 Months: Hmm. See ya silent spanking cream!

Rule #2: Throw Away or Donate Anything You Never Look At Or Have No Use For: I have zero use for spanking implements. I never look at them. In fact, I try to do the exact opposite.

Rule #3: Throw Away or Donate Anything You Dislike: Yep. I hate all our spanking implements!

Rule #4: Throw Away Anything That Has Been Overused, Damaged, or Broken: Our wooden spoon is broken (hmm, wonder how that happened?) and I'm pretty sure the other implements have been way overused.

So, there you have it. I guess my spring cleaning isn't actually done.

Anyone want some spanking implements? I'll gladly donate them!

Random Sentences About Crying

I want to cry.

It sounds like an odd statement. Usually when someone says that, it's the result of a sad or traumatic event that just occurred. Usually when someone says that, it's followed by "I want to cry because ___" (insert event in the blank). Sometimes when someone says that, it's because of something happy. However, when I typed that above, it was because of none of those things.

I want to cry because it's important in the aftermath of a spanking. Yeah, so if I said that to pretty much anyone on the planet who didn't practice DD or had never heard of DD, their response would be vastly different than I'm sure someone would receive if they stated "I want to cry" because of one of the reasons above.

 

The truth is, I've always struggled with crying. But, it isn't because of anything my husband does. My husband is a "good spanker". It feels kinda funny saying that, but it's true. He is. He knows what he's doing, and the spankings are definitely hard. For some reason though, pain rarely makes me cry. I mean, I gave birth to a child, completely naturally, without shedding a tear. It just doesn't make me cry.

 

I've been told time and time again how important the emotional connection is in the aftermath of a spanking. Yet, no matter how hard I'm spanked, or how badly I feel about something I've done, I can't help but think that crying is a sign of weakness for me. So, I've been working on that. I've been working on letting down those walls and showing emotions to my husband, especially after a spanking. My fear is that, if I don't cry, he won't think it was hard enough or effective enough, which is definitely not the case. 

This doesn't mean, in the several years we've been practicing DD, that I've never cried after a punishment because that's definitely happened. However, does it happen on a regular basis? No. Should it? Probably. Yes. 

 

I feel like, usually, when I get spanked I focus so much on getting him to stop "ow", "okay babe, really, that's good, you can stop now!", etc. and less on the actual pain. It's almost like a mental block. But, I've noticed that the times when I could cry (like this one) it was amazing. It made me feel so much better, it brought my husband and I closer, it released so many emotions and feelings of guilt, and it truly made me more remorseful and less likely to make that mistake that got me in trouble originally again. I miss those feelings, as strange as it sounds.

 

I recently spent about an hour reading C's Loving Domestic Discipline blog entry titled Releasing Those Tears. It examines, in depth, why crying and releasing emotions is so important during punishment. Although I'm still struggling with it a little bit, her entry has greatly helped. I encourage others to check it out if they are experiencing something similar to what I've been going through. It's long, but well worth the read.

I guess we all struggle with something. Hopefully I can update this post soon with the "problem" being fixed. I guess only time will tell. If anyone has any tips or has been through this, I'd love to hear you story!

Happy Easter

Happy Easter from our family to yours!

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We hope everyone has a blessed holiday!

Love,

Clint, Chelsea and our baby boy 

Approaching Others About Domestic Discipline (from the women's perspective)

Domestic discipline is often a taboo topic, and one that most people tend to stray away from discussing with others. I've been asked numerous times "how should I talk to ___ about domestic discipline" and I've often asked myself the exact same question. I was really shy at first about domestic discipline. I didn't want to share that aspect of our marriage with anyone, and it took a long time for me to "come out of my shell".

My husband had the idea to do this post together, which I thought was a great idea. So, over on his blog right now, he has up how to approach others about domestic discipline (from the man's point of view). It's worth reading as well. :)

I often feel like domestic discipline is a world that's hidden. Many people have aliases, and many people are extremely private about the fact that they practice. That's fine, and I understand that. However, as hard as it might be sometimes, it isn't necessarily an awful, horrible, scary thing for people (not everyone..) to know that you practice, right? Obviously I'm not talking about just walking up to your brother completely out of the blue and being like "hey, I practice domestic discipline. Cool, huh?". But, if the topic ever arises or if you see a marriage or relationship that you feel like could use domestic discipline to improve it, why not share?

I've been in this situation a few times and each of those times I have to mentally convince myself that it's the right thing to do..to help someone elses marriage. However, I still chicken out because of the fear that they will TOTALLY flip out on me. Still, in the many years I've been doing this, I have never had that happen. So that always gives me a vote of confidence. I think you'll find that, as scary as it might be in your head, there's a way that this can be done tactfully and respectfully to where it isn't all that bad.

This situation tends to most often come up for me in hair salons for some reason, although it could be somewhere different for you. But I swear, almost every time I get my hair done there's always a group of women sitting around talking, complaining, etc. about something in their marriage. I don't think DD is the "do all, solve all, fix all" so don't get me wrong. However, I definitely think that, if done correctly, there are areas of your marriage that it can improve. So, how do you go about bringing it up to someone? Below are my suggestions.

1. Make sure this person can truly benefit from it. This is step one for a reason..it's one of the most important steps. It's crucial to realize that DD is not the solution to every marital problem out there. For instance, if a friend of yours is discussing how her husband recently had an affair or something to that magnitude, domestic discipline probably isn't for them at that point. That's just one example of many. But the bottom line is to think about the issues that domestic discipline helps you with in your marriage. Whether it's procrastination, weight loss, attitude and respect, or something totally different..evaluate what helps you in your marriage and then ask yourself "do I think domestic discipline would help __" 
2. Know the right way to bring it up. This is the hardest part. It's one of those "way easier said than done" moments, definitely. I've found that the easiest thing to do is just jump right out and say "I'm really sorry you're struggling with ___" and then after a few minutes of talking, just come right out with "have you ever heard of domestic discipline". I know it sounds a little crazy. I get that. But with the experience I've had, it's always turned out ok in the end. 
3. Be prepared to explain. This is one of those topics that is going to take a little bit more than just a quick 5 minute walk through. So, make sure you have the time to explain it, the patience for all the questions you will most likely get, and the resources and tools to be able to answer them. The most common questions are ones like "how do you totally not feel like you're a child?" "are you sure that isn't abuse?" and a few others like it. So, be prepared to answer those questions (and more). 
4. It helps if you share personal experiences. Talking about your personal experiences with domestic discipline can either be super easy or ridiculously hard for people, depending on who you are, who you're talking to, and your personality type. Whether you share hours worth of stories, details, and personal messages or just a brief overlook, it will help the person you are sharing domestic discipline with to not feel like this is SUCH an "out there" concept that there's no way that they can ever wrap their minds around it. It will help them to relate.
5. Leave them with information, and the ability to research themselves. Just make sure that you explain that there are many many many variations of domestic discipline. You want to caution them that just googling the general term of "domestic discipline" may leave them with search results of a different form of domestic discipline than what you just recommended to them. Not only could this totally scare them, but also confuse them. So, make sure you explain there are different variations.
6. Give them the tools they need to discuss this with their spouse. Domestic discipline isn't a one-sided or one-person decision type of a thing. Often times, as many of you may already have experienced, the hardest thing about domestic discipline is bringing it up to your spouse. That part, alone, keeps many who may want to join the lifestyle, away from it because they are just too nervous to bring it up with their husband or wife. I've written a series on my blog about how to talk to your spouse about domestic discipline, and there are many variations of that same topic elsewhere in "blog land" if you search around.
7. Explain the benefits, but also the negatives. Domestic discipline isn't all rainbows and unicorns, despite what we may wish. There are negatives that should be shared along side all of the benefits. I recommend you paint the whole and real picture of what domestic discipline is and how it works in a marriage (whether that's your marriage, or a marriage in general) and not just the great parts of it. It's important to explain all sides.
8. Encourage a trial period, if nothing else. I feel like I'm constantly repeating this, but that's because it's so true- a trial period really does work. I think domestic discipline is one of those "you have to actually experience it to believe it" sort of things, and that's what a trial period can accomplish. For a lot of people, the thought of practicing domestic discipline initially for only a few weeks is less scary than forever.

So, why would you want to do this?

1. It's nice to share. That may sound stupid, but it's true. If domestic discipline works in your marriage, why not share that with a friend (or anyone else)? Help them out too. 
2. Support. It's always great to have "online friends" who practice domestic discipline to go to for support, advice, etc. But, it's even better to have friends that you have known for many, many years already to be able to discuss this topic with. It isn't just about you supporting them with their new DD journey, it's also about them being a resource that you can go to for support as well.

Sharing domestic discipline with others can also greatly help your confidence, build new friendships, and more.

I completely understand that it could be scary for some at first because you don't want people to look at you any differently. It's one thing to have a blog, "online friends", and more but it's another thing to sit face to face with someone you've known for ages and explain that you practice this. I felt those same emotions as I explained domestic discipline to my family, and some of my closest friends. However, I also felt a giant sense of relief. I love the fact that the majority of my best friends practice domestic discipline and even if they DON'T practice it, it's nice to know that I don't have to keep it totally hidden and that they are there for me if I need someone. The benefits outweigh the pros here, trust me folks.

On a side note, I want to thank everyone for the support that I've received via comments, emails, text messages, phone calls, and more regarding my last blog post. It was a personal one, and one that had nothing to do with domestic discipline, but that's one of the nice things about a blog- it allows me to vent and get my thoughts out. I greatly appreciated the support that I received from everyone. It means a lot, and I wouldn't be able to get through this without everyones support. Thank you.

-Chelsea

When the hurt becomes too much to handle.

I've always considered myself to be a pretty strong person. I've had many experiences in life that most people never have to go through and although they were difficult at the time, I'm grateful for the lessons they have taught me and the strength they have given me. However, despite the strength I have, I feel like sometimes (not often) there are moments when the pain just becomes so unbearable (emotionally, physically, you name it) where you don't know what to do. Right now is one of those times for me.

I debated whether or not to even post this. Actually this blog entry started out to be me just writing all my feelings down in an attempt to just "get it out" but never actually publish it. So that is why this blog entry is in a weird order, and it might not make any sense whatsoever to some of you because it's just thoughts written down. I changed my mind and decided to post it after I realized that maybe I do need support, as much as I may not want to admit it. Maybe shutting the world off right now isn't going to help me. Maybe this will help me heal.

Our son and my husband are my entire world. As I often say, my husband created my heart that my son holds. Conceiving our son wasn't easy. I suffered a few miscarriages (including one late-term one that was especially difficult) and the pregnancy was even worse (lots of hospitalizations, etc). Thankfully, he was born healthy and there aren't any indications that my next pregnancy would result in those same medical problems. So, that's the good news. 

Lately, I've been having baby fever big time. Our cute little family doesn't feel complete. Although I feel like it's perfect right now, it just doesn't feel complete. I want a second child, and a sibling for our son. The timing probably isn't perfect (with us getting ready to build a home, and our son still being young) but I can't help it.

When I found out I was pregnant recently, I was estatic. I tried to keep my extreme excitement inside because I knew it was probably early on and you never know what could happen. But, I couldn't help it. It's all I would think about. If it would be a boy or a girl, baby names, nursery colors, how our son would interact with his new sibling, how different holidays would be, how our family may now start to feel complete..just everything. My mind was going in a million directions. I was extremely excited.

Then it came crashing down when I found out we had a miscarriage. It was devestating, and still is. After you have a miscarriage it takes some time for your body to "reset" so to speak. I've been in a lot of pain these past few weeks, and it's been difficult because I feel like it's a constant reminder of the fact I lost the baby. Every "stab" of pain is like a stab in my heart, it feels like.

So, I'm working on moving on, healing, and being thankful for my amazing son that I DO have, and thinking "whatever happens, happens" and leaving the timing of our next child up to God. This one just wasn't meant to be.

While I'm dealing with the hurt of the miscarriage and trying to heal, my heart shatters all over again..

I have two sister in laws, one of whom I have never gotten along with. Although we've remained cordial, gotten along fine in person, attended family functions without any "drama", it isn't much of a secret that I don't really care for her because of numerous reasons. Although it's really not my place, I will be the first to say that she will NOT be a good mother because of choices she has made in the past, and continues to make to this day. In addition to that, she treats my brother in law like crap, and the list continues. The bottom line is she's awful. I feel like I can get along with justttt about everyone in the world except her. Truthfully.

Last fall, we discovered that she had stolen money from us. We were, naturally, upset but there wasn't a whole lot we could do about it. We moved on. However, we were aware that she was desperately trying to conceive a child, and was going to pretty great lengths to make sure that she did conceive. We then discovered that she used the money she stole from us to go to a fertility doctor. Fast forward to recently. Right as we're going through this emotionally tough time, she tells us she is pregnant. Not only is she pregnant, but the reason she is pregnant is because the money she stole from us to pay her awesome fertility doctor with is the visit that ended up getting her pregnant. Faaantastic.

Honestly, I understand to some of you this sounds bitchy, selfish, and a whole lot of other things and that's fine. But the truth is, suffering a miscarriage then finding out your thief of a sister in law is pregnant RIGHT after is like knives in my heart. It honestly feels like God took away my baby and gave it to her. Since we played a part in her getting pregnant (it was our money she used to conceive with, technically) it makes me sick. The timing is even worse. The fact she won't be a good mother is even worse than that. And the list continues.

I'm heartbroken. A part of me wants to try to be happy for her, but because of our past with her I just can't. The other part of me so desperately wishes I wouldn't have lost our baby because then maybe I wouldn't feel like God took away our baby and gave it to her.

Since this has all went down, I suffered another miscarriage (a few days ago). I'm almost positive at this point that I have to just leave it up to God and when the timing is right for us to have a second child, then the timing will be right. We've decided to not even try. Whatever happens, happens. The last thing I want is to get my hopes up SO high that we'll get pregnant...then we get pregnant..suffer a miscarriage and start it over, and over, and over, and over again several times until finally we get pregnant and don't lose the baby. So, we'll just leave it up to God.

It's easier for me to hand over control of things in life to my husband rather than to God for some reason. It's something I've struggled with a lot recently, because I feel like I'm constantly asking myself the question "why would God do this?". If the timing wasn't right, why would I be pregnant at all, only for Him to take the fetus away? I just have so many "why.." questions, and very few (if any) answers.

During the day, I'm fine. I'm able to "heal up and move on" just fine, and go about life as normal for the most part. But when he goes to bed at night and my husband goes to bed, I'm left lying there thinking. And that's where the problems come in. I drive myself crazy grieving the loss. I literally cry until my heart starts to race just so I can feel alive again.

I will get through this, be fine, and then one day it will just be one of those memories in the distant past that I can look back on and say "that made me stronger". But for now I feel weak. I feel lonely. I feel so much hurt I can't even take it. I feel sad. I feel anger.

I just want this all to pass.

Happy St. Patricks Day!

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Have a safe, and great, weekend everyone!

-Chelsea & family